A MUSICAL THING WITH KEYS
I am an atheist, anarchist blogger and writer: I don’t believe in the human construct of God, nor in the current systems of geopolitics. I’m taking medication for chronic depression and I have other mental health issues. I smoke cannabis to deal with my anxiety. I’m also an alcoholic. I have a personal website: www.stevelaker.net
Once upon a time, I ran a successful business. I had a nice flat in a manor house in Bexley, with a swimming pool. Before that, I was married for ten years and lived in Catford. Drinking destroyed it all.
After a lengthy battle, I now have my drinking under control. My love of the drink lost me everything and for three years I was homeless. I was sleeping rough on the streets for eight months. I established a squat in a disused commercial premises and lived there for six months, before being evicted. Then I sofa-surfed, stayed with friends and lived above a hellish pub for a while. Eventually, the local authority recognised me as being vulnerable and housed me. Now I live above a coffee shop in a Kent village, where I have been able to let my writing be my life. The war with depression is a longer conflict but I’ve embraced my unique illness. I’m 47 (a prime number), divorced and father to two kids who live with their mum.
I’m a vocal feminist and I’m fiercely anti-discrimination on any grounds; I’m active in the LGBTI community and supportive of anything which promotes equality, diversity and inclusion. I say what I want and I encourage debate. I wear my heart on my sleeve. Expression is freedom. I’m a supporter of The Amy Winehouse Foundation and the work which they do to educate young people on the dangers of substance abuse. I also support The Nonhuman Rights Project. After much internal debate, I posed a question: Are non-human species autonomous and self-determining? That was when I became a vegetarian, although I do have convenient lapses and caveats. My belief that consciousness is separate from the body is grounded in quantum mechanics but demonstrated by a very simple proposition: You are walking a path and you reach a point where the path splits: left or right. I’m left-handed, so I choose the path on the left and begin to walk. Does the other path still exist? These are the things which occupy my mind.
I am staunchly anti-censorship and this blog’s editorial guidelines are the same as Amnesty International’s Freedom of speech as a human right statement. The tools and resources for my blog work are in the Mark’s Books (Bookmarks) sidebar of this blog, along with links and stickers for causes I support and promote. Everyone has a voice and anyone can have a blog. I believe that humanity needs to start a new conversation and the beginning of that dialogue lies in writing, publishing, joining other voices and campaigning for change.
The story of my personal struggle is documented in this blog, the first fifteen months or so of which see me lose hope, become homeless, then eventually come back. I’m still a bit lost and continue to use the blog as an outlet for my thoughts, whether they be diary entries, observations and comment, satire, poems or my fiction work.
I am a regular contributor to the horror, fantasy and science fiction webzine, Schlock and my short stories have been published in print. My collected tales (The Perpetuity of Memory), my award-winning children’s book (A Girl, Frank Burnside and Haile Selassie), and my semi-autobiographical novel (The Paradoxicon), are available from most book stores. Future titles and publication dates are on my Book shelf page.
My non-fiction work includes marketing material and management reports, promotional email and web copy; research, analysis, comment and reviews. I also offer ghost writing, proof-reading and publishing services.
Despite having very little compared to what I once had, I’ve found the life which I wish to pursue.
I can be stalked and harassed via social media and my personal website is where I’m slightly more professional.